Reassurance

When I first asked why, he said:

"Usually I would just say you deserve better.. But I can't cuz I'd be lying cuz I know I could be the best for you."

Ahh! So far, so good.
How amaaazing

Need U Bad

Hella feelin this joint! Peep game on it. (:

Random & Uninmportant!

Things I Need to Do SOON:
- Study Abroad application (w/ ESSAY!)
- Double major declaration for Legal Studies
- Arrange "Angels" ASAP
- Read read read
- Plan accordingly for SB trip this weekend!

Things I Need to Save Up For:
- A NEW LAPTOP (mine is about to die!)
- Keyboard (life sucks without keys)
- An external (don't really need to save, just need to get it)
- Trips next year!

I've got a lot to do and sooo little time!

Matters of the Heart..

When it comes to matters of the heart, I am definitely not the most rational person. When I learn to let my guard down, I always tend to give too much of myself and I always end up getting hurt. It's happened over and over again but I always let it. That's just how I am.

This time around I want to say that it's different with him. It's definitely nothing new, but the tables were indeed turned -- his guard was down when mine wasn't. And I know how much it SUCKS to be in that position, cuz he put me there before.. But nevertheless, he stuck around. He "owed it to me" to wait for me cuz I did for him (to no avail at the time).

I like to believe the best in people. And this time I can say that everything feels different and better. He doesn't spite me for going out with other guys, hooka-ing or drinking or even just having dinner (one-on-one or not). He trusts me (something that my last relationship severely lacked), despite me having wronged him before. I don't have to change any part of me when I'm with him. And he's not afraid to hurt my feelings just as much as I'm not afraid to hurt his. I never have to tiptoe around anything I'm feeling or doing. He just gets me.

Despite all our differences (we're really, really different), he's my perfect complement.

We'll see where we're headed this time.
But for now I can say that I'm happy it's him. (:

Dreamlover..

Dreamlover, come rescue me!

Abraham Obama!

So the other night I had a dream that Siene stole weed from some cops and then smoked that weed with Abraham Lincoln.

Random right?! HAHA.

Anyway, I like Siene's blog post on it so here:
http://s1ene.blogspot.com/2008/10/weird-asss-dream.html

Abraham Obama -- I'm feelin it.

Sometimes, Being Busy Sucks...

Sometimes, being busy sucks for the both of us because there are times (like right now, and lately!) when I just want to spend time with you and remind myself that you're not going anywhere. Sorry if it's a lot to ask. I just hate waiting. Waiting waiting waiting.. I feel like I'm always stuck in the same positions.

But I cannot wait until tomorrow night at 7pm when my school WEEK will be over, and I will be officially dunzo with this semester's midterms! Weee.

Just gotta grind it out.