When it comes to matters of the heart, I am definitely not the most rational person. When I learn to let my guard down, I always tend to give too much of myself and I always end up getting hurt. It's happened over and over again but I always let it. That's just how I am.
This time around I want to say that it's different with him. It's definitely nothing new, but the tables were indeed turned -- his guard was down when mine wasn't. And I know how much it SUCKS to be in that position, cuz he put me there before.. But nevertheless, he stuck around. He "owed it to me" to wait for me cuz I did for him (to no avail at the time).
I like to believe the best in people. And this time I can say that everything feels different and better. He doesn't spite me for going out with other guys, hooka-ing or drinking or even just having dinner (one-on-one or not). He trusts me (something that my last relationship severely lacked), despite me having wronged him before. I don't have to change any part of me when I'm with him. And he's not afraid to hurt my feelings just as much as I'm not afraid to hurt his. I never have to tiptoe around anything I'm feeling or doing. He just gets me.
Despite all our differences (we're really, really different), he's my perfect complement.
We'll see where we're headed this time.
But for now I can say that I'm happy it's him. (:
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I'm glad to hear that you're well and happy. Thanks for the comment, it really means a lot to me that you are happy for me. and duh! we have to reunite this winter... we're gunna be 21 babygirrrrl!!! downtown sd where you at!?!? hahaha.
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