Sunday, December 5, 2010


So glad I found you babe, so thankful for your ways
You're such such a blessing to love and be loved in return
I tried to keep myself from you but now I finally see the truth:
CAN'T NOBODY LOVE ME LIKE YOU DO

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Day 27 - Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Started it just to try something new and to keep myself blogging. It was an obvious fail since I've been on this 30-day challenge for about 4 months now. I'm determined to finish though, so eventually I will.

And eventually I'll get back to writing about things that are substantial.. But to be honest my life is pretty amazing right now and I'm way too busy to even stop to write! Soon enough though!

Til then, be easy

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Day 26 - What you think about your friends

My friends, my real friends, are pretty much the most amazing people you could ever meet. (: I've been blessed with true friendship and I'm glad that everyone who's in my life is in it for a reason. We all inspire and motivate each other to get to where we know we wanna be, and seriously sometimes that's what I really need.

Not to mention, my friends sure know how to get down! Always a good time (;

Sunday, October 31, 2010

I have jealousy issues, but it's not what you'd think.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Day 25 - What I would find in your bag

01. Hello Kitty wallet with all my wallet things
02. Chapstick, eyeliner, eyelash curler, mirror
03. Tissues
04. Sunglasses
05. Pens
06. Lighter, cuz these always come in handy
07. Digital camera

That's baaaasically it though. My purse is too small to fit anything much bigger than that, which is what I intended when I bought it, so yay.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY TARPANDA!!!

Happy birthday to my best girlfriend Amanda!

Wish I could celebrate with her today buut I will FINALLY be reunited with her in November when she's done being busy with grad school exams ughhh.... Haha. Yaaaay.


I LOOOVEEE YOUUU PANDAAA!!!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Day 24 - A letter to your parents


Dear Mom and Dad,

Any meaningful letter I could write to you would be much too personal, but I just wanted to say thank you for everything you do for me. From sending me to my dream school, to letting me move back home free of rent (haha) to let me re-establish myself. You've always supported me in everything, and I find that living my dreams is possible with your help and support and love.

I love you,
Christine

PS. I'm super grateful that you love my boyfriend too. (:

Monday, October 18, 2010

Let me tell you why I love him


And even the things I don't like about him are fine with me
Because it's not hard for me to understand him because he's so much like me
And it's truly my pleasure to share his company
And I know that it's God's gift to breathe the air he breathes


India Arie always speaks truth. I love. I feeel.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Day 23 - Something you crave for a lot

Hmmm.. Food-wise? I'd have to say pho, and cali burritos or carne asada fries. And western bacon cheeseburgers. And rice. Mmm.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Things I Like About Working

01. Paycheck. DUH. Just got my first one! Time to book me a flight to Sac. (:
02. My funny coworkers. I feel like all we do in the office is giggle :P
03. Free food! I think we have parties like every other day.. -___- I thought I was gonna cut down on snacking, but they make it much too hard by bringing chips and brownies and cake like every day.
04. Keeps me busy. Otherwise I'd be depressed from boredom.
05. Air-conditioning.. At least for now. Cuz it's been so hot!
06. Reason to buy new clothes :P
07. All the great eateries around my office. I do mean In-n-Out, Taco Bell, Carl's Jr, and the like. But I won't be doing that everyday, of course.
& more.. But I'm too tired to keep going with my list now haha

Day 22 - What makes you different from everyone else

Ugh, I hesitate to write this post in fear that it'll be really cliche, but here goes anyway.

There are a lot of things that make me different from everyone else. Just the combination of things I've experienced over the course of my twenty-two years of life have contributed to what makes me "different." And it'll continue to be that way.

I grew up with this unwarranted insecurity that I wasn't good enough, that I always had to prove something to someone, but that in the end no one would care anyway. After so many bouts of depression, as a result of the so-called haters, the unhealthy relationships, the perceived failures, and that same old insecurity that haunted me, something finally kicked in and I started to let myself grow up, grow into what I am now.

Going into college was such a beautiful thing for me, because not only was it 500 miles away from my comfort zone, but it led me to meet people who would help me see that I'm worth something. Of course I was still plagued by the haters and the failed relationships, but my past experiences helped me through them.

I can't even go into how messed up things have been growing up, where it got to the point where I really believed that my life wasn't worth living, but without it I wouldn't be as strong and independent as I am today. I know a lot of people still doubt me, still talk their smack, but these days I just don't let it phase me.

I've accomplished a lot but I don't ever forget where I came from.

I definitely owe a lot to my amazingly supportive and loving family, the best friends that I've kept and made, and my faith for bringing me here. I still have soooo much to learn and so much to experience, but I've got enough determination and motivation to get myself where I want and need to be.

Anyway, I'm sure everyone has their own story that defines them, that sets them apart, but this is just a part of mine. I won't go into it more than I have, because it's much too personal, but that's it. Cliched or not, it is what it is.

& I wouldn't change a thing (:

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Long-distance...

I've never ever ever been in so deep as I am now. I never knew what it really felt like to be loved the way I am loved, and to love the way I love him. 500 miles of distance is only a small obstacle in our relationship, but we're making it work. It's worth the plane tickets and gas money just as long as I can kiss him and hug him and fall asleep right next to him.



Every second feels like eternity when I'm not with him, but I know we can make it through anything.

LOVE IS PATIENT...

BLESSED.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy

Knowing me and what's making me happiest right now, I'd totally post a picture of my amazing, wonderful, best-thing-that's-happened-to-me boyfriend, but I'll spare you the gag moment and post something else that makes me happy:

My beautiful niece! She's now four years old as of Thursday, and she is growing up waaaay too fast. She really loves me though, and I love her too. (:

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Haha. This one's funny.

Can't even really think about marriage or the future, cuz right now I'm handling me and I'm sure the person I'm going to marry someday is handling himself too, but all I CAN say is right now I absolutely love the one I got, my boyfriend & bestfriend, the best thing I would've never even thought to ask for.


Ain't no love like the one I got, no one could love me better.
Thanks for taking such good care of me, love (:

I'm just taking it as it comesss, yeah?

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

The "First Day of Work" Post

I had my first official day of training today and I must say I'm a bit overwhelmed with all the stuff I did today.

Rewind back to 2008, I worked for this company as a summer receptionist/clerk, which was easy shmeezy work. It was so easy that the agents and CSRs gave me extra work to do, which of course I didn't mind.

Fast forward to the present, and boy do I wish it were 2008 again! Okay, not really.. But my responsibilities as a Commercial CSR Assistant have greatly increased. I kind of miss the days of answering phones, directing calls, making copies, and filing (although we don't file anymore apparently; it's all paperless now!), but I guess there's always a time to move on.

Anyway, like I said, my position entails a lot of responsibilities that I can't even go on to discuss. But it's a LOT.

I like training right now because my hand is being held throughout the whole process, but I can already see things that I want to change--not only my desk, but also just the different tasks in general and just the way my mind will work in regards to the things I have to do.

But that's that. Work is good so far, and I'm going back in tomorrow to learn more tasks and more details. I'm ready to be overwhelmed again....

& I gotta learn to start waking up early again. I had to resort to coffee today >_<

All right, more updates later as my work life progresses.

PEACE!

Day 19 - Nicknames you have; why do you have them

01. Chris - For obvious reasons. Although only some high school friends and my fam calls me this.

02. Steen - Also for obvious reasons. Sometimes people call me Steeny still. My screen name used to be steeny the weeny. Haha.

03. Tarsier - But really only Panda calls me this, because she gets to be an animal so I get to too. Tarsier <3 Panda! Guess why she calls me tarsier?

Don't really have much other nicknamesss. My name's too boring :P

Monday, September 20, 2010

Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have

Just general, I guess...

01. Law school
02. Successful career life after law school
03. Travel
04. Marry my soulmate
05. Have a happy loving family

Working toward the first two as we speak, and hopefully the rest will fall into place.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

I can honestly say I wouldn't want to switch lives with anyone for a day. If I were to switch lives with, say, a rich person then it would suck to come back to my life the day after.. Unless I could transfer that person's money into my account without them tracking, but that's not really realistic.

So, no one. That's all!

Friday, September 17, 2010

Day 16 - Another picture of yourself


Here's me at the top of the Diamond Head Hike in Honolulu, Hawaii. Such an amaaazing view, absolutely does the beauty of the Island justice. (:

Thursday, September 16, 2010

LIFE!

It's been a minute since I last wrote in here, and WOW so much has happened. From Hawaii, to a funeral, to life in SF, to relocating back down to SD... To spending soo much time with the love of my life, finally getting myself employed, and picking up an internship, it's hard to even know where to start.

Boyfriend left San Diego today after driving down from NorCal with me and spending 9 days here! He went back to Sac and the scary thing is not knowing when we're going to see each other again. But I'm employed now, so I will not even hesitate to get myself up to visit him in Sacramento.

Anyway, with his departure marked the signal of the end of my supposed indefinite post-undergrad vacation. I pretty much came home and was offered a job on the spot, for which I start training on Tuesday (I came back last Tuesday.. All this happened within two weeks!) and picked up an internship for which I start in a few hours.

I know this is all rambles and whatnot, but I just wanted to say that I am back in the blogging business. I definitely must recount my Hawaii trip, my SF vacation, and Collin's vacation here with me in SD, but I will save that for another time, or actually when I have more time.

All I know is that life is moving super fast right now and I'm not quite sure if I like it yet but I know I sure as hell have to brace myself for it cuz, well, I don't have any other choice.

Til next time, much love.

Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

01. Janet Jackson - I Get So Lonely
02. Zero 7 - Today
03. Ryan Leslie - Diamond Girl
04. Asher Roth & Ryan Leslie - Diamond Girl
05. The Dream - I Love Your Girl
06. Aaliyah - At Your Best
07. Michael Jackson - Get On the Floor
08. Kanye West - Good Life
09. Broken Dreams - Pirate Face
10. Michael Jackson - Working Day and Night

Monday, August 16, 2010

Day 14 - A picture of you and your family

Like I said, it really is a rare occasion to get us all together, so I'm really blessed and glad that they could all make it out to my college graduation. Love them!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Last day of work,

FIIIIIINALLLYYYYY.

It's been a really interesting summer of work; meeting new people but working under the same administration with a different title has been nothing but rewarding, and has definitely enriched my work experience. After 4 years I'm finally leaving this job and entering into the unknown, which I'm nervous and anxious about but I think I'm ready for. Not to mention I finished my last last undergrad final on Thursday which means I'm forreal done with UC Berkeley. It's been good, but I know that it's time to move on! I feel it.

My parents and Atera came up this weekend to help my bro move into SF and to help me move out of Berkeley. They are the BEST. They slept the night in my dorm room (hahaha), and it was so cute to see Atera super excited to sleep on the top bunk with me (I gave up my bed to my momma). Needless to say I barely got any sleep because she moves so much, but it was well worth her excitement. I attended my last Mass at Newman (until I am but a visitor in Berk) and we ate our last meal at Chang Luong, where we go every single time my parents come here. It was funny because the owners there pretty much never show emotion EVER, but when my mom mentioned that I had graduated she was very interactive and said she would miss us. I knew she would! We're such devoted customers. Haha.

Anyway, I'm about to pack up for my next two days and then Hawaii on Wednesday. Gotta make a trip out to the city tomorrow to drop off the last of my stuff, and then it's paradise livin' for days. Super stoked!

I will now leave you with a picture of my amazingly sexy boyfriend who is in Hawaii already. Haha, sorry to put you on blast baby, but I'm super excited and well you look amazing! Happy Sunday (:

Day 13 - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Hmm.. This one's kind of hard because I'm pretty good at evading emotional pain.

Dear < insert name here >,
I don't regret anything we've been through, but I am glad to know that you are no longer a part of my life. I divested a whole lot of emotions and trust in your care, and in the end it pretty much amounted to nothing (or so it seems). I did my best to treat you well and be as good to you as much as I possibly could, and I hope you don't forget that. You should know that I forgive you, but what's more important at this point is that I forgive myself for letting you hurt me. What's done is done, and I hope you are happy, because that's all I could ever want for you or from you anymore. I know I am! Take care.
-Christine

.. Hmm. That was weird. I started writing it to one person, but then re-directed it to someone else. Haha. Actually it's such a generic letter that I don't even know who it's for.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Day 12 - How you found out about Tumblr Blogspot and why you made one

This one is lame. Haha.

Eh. I moved to Blogspot from Xanga cuz I always have a blog.. I don't know. Just nice to share my thoughts for whoever's willing to read, even if the number is small. Hahaha.

K, lamesies.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Day 11 - Another picture of you and your friends



Yay for new pictures. (:
Haha, too lazy to look for more, but that sums up my past weekend!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

COUNTDOWN TO HI: ONE WEEK!

Yesterday I drove out to Sac to hang out with Collin before he leaves for Hawaii TOMORROW. That's so crazy. We were antagonizing over the fact that we'd have to wait 2 weeks to see each other, so I just said SCREW IT and took a drive. Now we only have one week!

I still can't believe I'll be in Hawaii a week from today. It still blows my mind that I'm making this happen for myself. To know that I'll be there with my amazing boyfriend and some of my most awesome best friends is just super exciting. My first time in Hawaii spent with some really cool people! YAAAY.

There are a few things I gotta do before I go though, such as beast this last exam, close out my final days at this job, get all my stuff out of Berkeley, hang out with this friend and that, get bikini'd up, and give myself a mani/pedi, but I know it'll go by super duper fast. To be honest, I'm not quite sure if I'm ready for it but at this point I just gotta take the days as they come!!!

So I'm done shopping for my trip (even received my my HK swimsuit in the mail, FINALLY) maybe except for a pair of sandals or something, but all that's left to do is PACK!

Anyway, gotta get back to real life real quick before I get to do that.. So, til my next post (which shouldn't be too far from now), see yaaa!

Monday, August 9, 2010

Day 10 - Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

I completely fail at keeping up with this, and it's obviously going to take more than 30 days to finish this thing since I probably won't do this in Hawaii (NEXT WEEK!). Anyway, here are some songs.. I put this one off because I couldn't think of songs, and still can't, but here are a few of my faves:

Happy:



.. Among a billion others.

Sad:


Bored:

.. Plus a billion other Mariah Carey songs because I sing when I'm bored.

Hyped:

HAHA. Of course.

Mad:
.. I don't really have songs that I listen to when I'm mad. It's whatever comes on and could calm me down. Probably any of the songs I already listed.

Anyway, that's all. I didn't like this post because it required too much thinking. Haha.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Things I like about this summer

This summer's been so different for me compared to my previous summers, as I've never spent a summer in the Bay Area before. So anyway, here's a list of things (I know, I've been into lists a lot lately) that I like/love about this summer so far! Oh, and these are in no particular order:

01. Getting paid. My hours may suck, but the paychecks are ALWAYS worth it. Always. Thank you, self, for working and financing your own Hawaii trip. You're awesome.
02. Free housing! And on top of that, getting paid to get housed. Hahaha. And living a minute away from work. How convenient! It's always nice to live for free. AND! I didn't have to find a subletter cuz I no longer have an apartment. Woo.
03. $3.50 meals at Crossroads. Meaning, $4 total for lunch and dinner in the same day (since take-out boxes are $0.50). Call me cheap, but I consider it economical, and smart. So HA! I love unlimited food and cheap meals.
04. Being 1.5 hours from Collin! Because if events happened the way they "should" have, we'd be 8 hours apart! And I wouldn't be able to see him on the weekends as often as we do. I love waking up to him and spending days with him and doing everryyythinggg with him. Haha jk. Kinda :P
05. Hanging out with Collin's family and friends in Sacramento. Cuz, call me crazy, but Sac KINDA reminds me of SD. Plus the people in his life are AWESOME and GENUINE and NICE people that I love being around.
06. Close access to gym! Cuz I've been working out almost daily and it's good for my health.
07. Hanging out with AiR!!! Cuz after this summer I won't get to see them again (except when they come back in Sept). So much fun (:
08. Convenient access to our music room! I know I have a piano at home, but it's nice to get some privacy. And without the music room, I probably wouldn't be getting back into personal music as much as I have now.
09. Hawaii to look forward to!!! Of course, there's not really anything else on my mind. (:

Anyway. There's a lot of things I DON'T like also, but why dwell on the negative? Summer's been going well and that's all I could ask for. (:


It feels good when he's around
'Cuz he's so far from all the others that I've been with
'Cuz I thought I knew what love was
But it wasn't until he came and changed my life
And now I realize that
All the love in this world,
I wanna give to this boy
Because he makes me wanna be a better girl

It's real, for real. (:

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Day 09 - Something you’re proud of in the past few days

I'm proud of a fewww thingsss here and there, although nothing too extreme:

01. Finally got around to making Collin's grad present (:
02. Making amends with a certain stubborn someone in my life.
03. Burning bridges where bridges shouldn't have existed in the first place.
04. Learning new songs on the piano!
05. Sleeping less.. That sounds ridic but I sleep way too much sometimes.

Anyway, that's that. (:

Friday, July 30, 2010

I love to buy things

And I just bought a new swimsuit!:



Hopefully it fits me... I don't like online shopping for that reason but I really, really wanted this swimsuit! Anyway, I need to stop online shopping because my online buying has become more and more frequent.

Note to self: You get paid in a week, so chill til then!

Musiq

Two songs I could never get tired of.. (:



Day 08 - Short term goals for this month and why

Hmm.. Since it's the end of the month already I'll just do short-term goals for the last few days of this month and next month.

01. Work out daily (or almost daily)! Going to Hawaii in LESS THAN three weeks so I gotta keep my body as bangin' as possible. (;

02. Spend more time on the piano. This needs no explanation, except that music is THE most constant thing in my life and I'd honestly be nowhere without it as my escape.

03. Save money! Gotta keep at least six bills for Hawaiian fun, and the rest for the fact that my paychecks will stop coming soon... What a sad thought ):

04. Organize and clean. Throw stuff out that I no longer need. Gotta seriously downsize and I have way too much stuff in here that I do not need. Moving out of Berkeley finally means having to throw the past out of my life and make room for the future.

05. Find a jobbbbbbbbbbbbb & start giving my life some direction. This one is scary.

06. Have an AMAZING time in Hawaii!!! Going with my wonderful boyfriend and some of my bestfriends. I'm so glad we're making it happen.

07. Get a camera. My life has been so empty without one! I think this will be happening soon, though.

08. Get a new bank account..... And MAYBE a new credit card too. The latter is kind of scary though. Gotta stabilize my finances!

09. Go shopping! Gotta buy some new business clothes, and then stock up for Hawaii. Also, my wardrobe just needs some updating. It sucks not being able to buy clothes all the time ): I also need to buy some shoes and some bags.. Etc

10. Wake up earlier and be on time to things. This one's a toughie, but it needs to happen.

Anyway, thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat's that. I've got a busy couple weeks ahead and I don't know if I'll manage but I guess I have no choice! My bro is finally moving back to Cali and I finally get to chill with my niece next week. (:

Sooo much to look forward to!!!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

My family. This picture is from 2008 cuz it's hard to get us all together these days, but to this age and time in my life they are still able to impact my choices and my feelings, whether positively or negatively. Biggest impact most definitely.

SNAKE!


OMGGGG I THINK THIS IS SOO COOL. I used to be super addicted to playing Snake on my old phone.. It was one of those games that kept me awake at night! When I was lying in bed in the dark! Hahahaha. Wowww.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Things to do!

Bah. It's been a long night, and it's not nearly finished.
So tomorrow here's the things I NEEEED to do:
1. Work-out! Hawaii's coming so soon..
2. Clean my rooom
3. Last-minute touches on my resume
4. Look up job thingies
5. Call my bro?
6. Spend time in the music room
7. Side project!
Hopefully I can accomplish everything. Just gotta stay FOCUSED!

À moi, tu es parfait

What we had before was an intimate friendship without the intimacies of a romance.


Look where we are now,
& I wouldn't have it any other way.

You've been so good to me since day one, always making me happy when others failed and when I couldn't do it myself. You are absolutely amazing, and I've never felt more loved than I do with you. I don't have to hide my feelings and I always know that you feel the same, just by the way you look at me.

À moi, tu es parfait. J'adore tout de toi.

I love you.

Day 06 - Favorite super hero and why

HA. If Hello Kitty were a superhero she'd be mine, obv.
Since she's not, I'm gonna have to go with...



okay okay, I know. He's kind of a cheapo superhero because he has all those powers. But honestly, all the powers he has are all the powers that I want for myself!!! Not to mention he is able to mask his identity just by wearing glasses, and his real self gets the girl of his alter ego's dreams.

And let's face it, we all have our kryptonite....

I guess you could chalk this up to my knowledge of superhero ignorance, but I was more of a Final Fantasy RPG girl growing up than comic books. Oopsie.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Monday, July 26, 2010

California State Fair

This past weekend I went to the Cal State Fair with Collin. If you know me well enough, you should know that I LOOOOOOOOOVE the San Diego (ahem, Del Mar) Fair. I'm such a fair person. Haha.

Anyway, the Cal State Fair was still fun. And I loved my company (:

I watched a hypnotist show, the first hypnotist show I've ever seen, and it was hilaaaaaaarious. Looked at the art exhibits, the Disney exhibit, and the animal exhibit. Spent some time in the ride/game zone. Took photobooth pictures (of course!), bought cotton candy (of course!), and had Dip n Dots. The Cal State Fair DOES beat SD Fair in that it has a nightly fireworks show, so seeing fireworks was nice since we didn't get to watch any on the Fourth of July.

Anyway, pictures (and please bear with poor quality, I have no working camera so these are mobile uploads)--





Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn’t have

I wish I didn't blame myself for things I can't control.

He makes me (:



"my boy bruno took these lyrics right outta my mind haha"

(:

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Day 03 - A picture of you and your friends


The Fantastic Four, AKA the best people you could ever meet. LooOOoOOoove


My Berkeley girlfriends!


The best guy friends I could ask for


Friendships going strong since the 4th grade (:

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Day 02 - The meaning behind your Tumblr Blogspot name

SteadyL0VE. Why?

Cuz the world's so chaotic and at the end of the day the steadiest thing that I could ever want or ask for is love.. & the most constant thing I'd like to exude is love.

Seems simple enough, but in practice is a bit harder than it sounds.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Day 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself


01. My birthday is on December 24.. Yes, Christmas Eve. That's why my name is Christine. And no, my birthday does NOT suck, thank you very much.
02. Recently received my B.A. in Political Science & Legal Studies from UC Berkeley. I've wanted to go to UC Berkeley since the 4th grade.
03. I used to dream of being a back-up singer for someone famous because singing harmonies is my favorite. This is still true.
04. I've had surgery twice before--a cyst under my left eye in fourth grade, and wisdom teeth.
05. I am currently in love with my bestfriend. It's the most honest, open, and loving relationship I've ever been with. Collin Thomas is amazing and perfect and mine.
06. My niece is the coolest three-year old EVER. I love her so much, and when I'm ballin' I'm going to spoil her rotten.
07. I got my first speeding ticket this past May. It was $382 and I'm still waiting to see if they'll reduce my fine.
08. I like hot summers. Bay Area is too cold in the summer.
09. I'm allergic to grass and cats.
10. Final Fantasy RPGs are my guilty pleasure. They really are the best. I have yet to move on to another RPG game.. But I will.
11. I'm addicted to fast food and soda. I also love ketchup and rice and almost always have to have one of the two in every meal.
12. I'm 5'2" and I like my height. I USED to want to be 5'7" or taller so I could be a model or a WNBA player, but since I stopped growing I've accepted that it is what it is.
13. My dog Poopy is the biggest bed hog but she's so cute and cuddly and I love and miss her.
14. I make horrible first impressions and I have an extremely hard time trusting people. Don't take it personal.
15. Faith, family, boyfriend, & friends are number one, always.

Why not?

So I don't have a Tumblr and don't feel the need to get one because Blogspot is treating me well as is, but I thought I'd do this little 30-day thing that I found. I figure why not, since it's kind of interesting and it gives me incentive to blog more anyhow. So here we goo....

Friday, July 16, 2010

I hate waking up..

..after unsettling dreams. Why you were in my dream last night I will never know.

But just the thought of it brings a lot of questions in my head, and a lot of negative emotions. Followed by that same feeling of apathy I always feel when I think about you.

In my dream we were friends and we wanted to live next door to each other and manipulated a lot of other people's living situations to do so. It was all well and good and there was no awkwardness or contempt, just me and you as friends. Hmm, friends.

When in reality, I wish nothing to do with you but always wish that you are doing well. Strange.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

An amazing weekend with an amazing person

.. Well this happened a few weekends ago but it's still one of the best weekends, at least in my book.

A few months ago I posted a blog entitled "FIVE weeks!" which laid out a list of things I wanted to do in Berkeley before I leave this place for good. I finally updated it, and during that weekend we covered 5 of those things and even threw in a special date to San Francisco where we ate at the Cheesecake Factory and sat outside overlooking Union Square, which I had never done before.

I guess it's easier to narrate with pictures, so here's a glimpse of that weekend..

Trip to Botanical Gardens | June 18, 2010This was my second time being here, and I had a lot of fun trying to navigate my way around with Collin. So much nature O_o

Drive up to Lawrence Hall of Science | June 18, 2010.. Didn't quite make it into the actual museum, so I can't cross it off my list just yet. But the view from there is just amazing.

Dinner at Cheesecake Factory | June 18, 2010I'm glad we were able to sit outside and enjoy the view, despite the cold!

Happy 4 Months (:It's been such a short amount of time but it's been a long time coming and I have never found someone so perfect for me as he is. So blessed to have him in my life.

Golden Gate Bridge | June 19, 2010Another windy day but so worth it!

Pika Pika Pictures in Japantown (: | June 19, 2010Hehe, I'm so glad he took them with me (:

Picnic on Memorial Glade | June 20, 2010My first time sitting out on Memorial Glade, save for one short time during a freshman year Cal event. This was nice. It was warm and sunny and we ate a lot and pretty much any time I spend with him is the best.

Swimming at Strawberry Canyon | June 21, 2010Swimming! My first time up to Strawberry Canyon too. (: Jennie was with us too!

Anyway, that's pretty much how our weekend went. I'm so glad I have someone who actually wants to do things with me that I want to do, too. He's so so so good to me and I can't even put into words how much he means to me. He's my BESTfriend and I wouldn't have it any other way.

ILOVEYOU (:

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Financial woes

It's hard being in charge of your own finances, especially when you've never been spoiled and have always needed to take care of things yourself.

I've been employed by the campus since my freshman year of college (although one summer I worked for an insurance company), so I couldn't really do much other extracurriculars except my a cappella group, which took up a lot of time, and cut into potential work time, but was worth making time for.

Now all I do is work.

What sucks is that this year I've been unfortunate enough to have to suffer so many financial crises, such as--
1. In April, right after spring break, my laptop broke. Seeing as how I was in the middle of all my paper-writing and music director-handling, I had to get a new one ASAP. My parents helped me out with this one, for which I gladly accepted their help, and what I consider a grad gift to me. :P
2. In April/May I also got 3 tickets: $75 parking, $25 expired registration, and $386 speeding. I'm still in the process of seeking a fine reduction on the last one..
3. My camera broke two weeks ago. I'm going to Hawaii in about a month and a half, so it's totally necessary that I need to buy a new one. This is like the least costly of my expenses, but still costly and unplanned for. I have to wait a week to get on this, though.
4. This morning I woke up to find that my phone hadn't been charging, although the charger was plugged in. When I pulled the charger thing out of the port, several gold prongs fell out. I'm pretty sure those are vital to its life, so when I called T-Mobile, there wasn't really much they could do about it since it's no longer under warranty. Another $200 for a new phone, although it's a nice phone (my first Smart phone, holla).
5. This is not really a crisis but it was still unplanned for: I paid for my own Hawaii airfare, and will be financing my own trip. It will totally be worth it, though.

Now it may seem like I'm ballin', but really, I just work hard. I try not to ask for my parents for help unless I really, really need it, so life gets hard. I make a lot of social sacrifices in order to make my life function. So far it's been going pretty well, but right now and lately I've just been struggling. Understandable.

Just don't question why I may seem irritated at you when you're bragging about buying this and that from this store and that store. I probably love you, but hate you at the moment.

Sometimes I wish I were spoiled.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Real life Jurassic Park school nightmares

Another night, another nightmare. What's newwwwwww

It was late at night and I'm trying to get to some friends who are doing a late night shift at the car entrance of school.. There's basically someone at the entrance at all hours, ready to direct cars to where they need to be, or answer questions. I'm coming FROM the school to visit, so I'm unprotected by a car. Just me and some other people on foot.

The almighty catch is--there are untamed, uncaged animals on the walk from school to where they work. It's basically like Jurassic Park sans dinosaurs, but with other crazy animals like lions and tigers instead (maybe this could be better compared to Jumanji). Anyway. So to get to the entrance you have to either ninja your way through in order not to wake the animals or run really, really fast. Basically in my dream I was doing both. I fiiiiiiinally get to the front to see that everyone's having a blast on the job. I'm so tired but eventually the sun comes up and we could go back to school when their shift is done.

Next it's time for class. The weird thing is, the school is an indoor school so the entrance is like a foyer-type entrance.. Think Mario on DS (the one where you have to get stars) where it's just a circle-type hallway with doors. So I go to my first class and it's rather uneventful. But then I go to my second class which is right next door and it's math class.

Amanda is in the class with me, but she decides not to save me a seat. However, the only way you're allowed to leave the class is if you and a partner are able to correctly answer a question. Since she chose to sit next to someone else, she already had a partner. And, surprise surprise, there were 25 people in the class and everyone was partnered off except me. You weren't allowed to do the problem by yourself, so basically I was stuck.

And that's how my dream ended. O_o

Tuesday, June 29, 2010


Hahaha.

Someone who will put up with the things loving me can bring
But still be there to see us through
Someone who would put up with the strange and complicated things
Cause I would do the same for her too
Someone who I can be real with, ain´t gotta be perfect
Because loving one another is all that matters
It´s not hard to explain, so believe me when I say
That I found all of that in you


Everything I feel..

Zombie dreams

Another interesting night during my unconscious slumber.

What started out as a good dream ended up as a nightmare. Problem is, I can't remember the good part because it was overshadowed by the zombies.

I end up agreeing to go on a pleasant bike ride (with.. I can't remember who I was with). It is scenic and nice, there are jolly people all around. We continue down this pathway that is slightly downhill the whole ride. We then stumble upon this yard full of workers with long sticks in their hands, which causes us to slow down.

I have to do a double-take, and it dawns on me that these workers are glowing a sort of bluish/whitish color. And are somewhat transparent, lacking solid physical properties. And the sticks in their hands aren't sticks, but spears. ZOMBIES! WITH SPEARS! Away in the distance there IS a real human, working a cashier-type desk, who warns me that if I keep going down I will never return. I panic, upon seeing zombies with spears and being told I could never return, and I immediately jump off my bike.

The cashier guy (it was weird) told me the only way I could get back up now is by purchasing this spring thing that would shoot me back up. But I ignore him and try running back up the way that I came from only to find that I couldn't go back, no matter how hard I ran.

At that point, I woke up in a panic and it was 8am. And I haven't been able to go back to sleep.. -.-

Time to get my day going, I guess.

Monday, June 28, 2010


I just wanna touch & kiss
& I wish that I could be with you tonight
You give me butterflies inside


I love you so, so much.

Still having AiR dreams... -.-

Last night I had a really vivid dream involving AiR.

In the dream it was the day of our winter concert, for which our theme was some Christmas or winter holiday theme (think Christmas trees, presents, red/green ensembles, etc.). However, I FAILED as a director because I had forgotten to book a room. So I call the room reservation office and I tell them my dilemma, and a lady named Daniela tries to help and ask what kind of room I'd need.

I tell them the usual: 145/155 Dwinelle, 10 Evans, 105 North Gate, 2040/2050/2060 VLSB, etc. Of course, not surprisingly, all the rooms are booked.

I tell her then that we need a room, any room, big enough to fit us. She puts me on hold to find one.. But she puts me on hold for so long that I put the phone down (without putting it on speaker, so dumb). When I pick the phone up again after what seems like an hour she's in the middle of talking after already having mentioned the room, and she says bye but I stay on the line. I'm frantically saying "Hello?" into the phone and someone finally picks up, and I explain that I've just been given a room assignment but I didn't hear it. This new lady puts me on hold again, for a really long time, and I put down the phone AGAIN (stupid mistake twice in one dream? What's up with that..) and of course I pick up the phone just as she finished saying the room assignment AGAIN and is hanging up. I call the office back, but I get an automated answering saying, "Hi you've reached the Room Reservations Office. Our hours are Monday to Friday 8am-5pm..."

By now it's almost 10pm, and our show starts at 10pm, so I tell the group we just have to go and we'll pick a room.

We get there around 10:30pm, pick a room in Wurster (random), and then start singing to our audience, which is just my mom because no one knew where the show was. Then one of the room reservation people comes in and starts yelling at us that we're not allowed to be in there... And I explain that Daniela said we could be in there, and she then finds Daniela who says it's fine.

We continue singing, and another room reservation person (this time a guy, who, in my dream, happens to be one of the teachers from my high school, and also a member of my old Church) comes in and tries yelling at us, and I go outside to explain the situation and ask him if there are better rooms available for the next night of our show. He shows me the list and most of the ones that are available are the military base rooms (yeah, wth?).

When I woke up we were in the middle of looking up rooms that we could use, but that's about it.

I guess there are still some things on my mind about my year as AiR director, things that still haunt me, maybe? Or maybe I'm just having withdrawals. But seriously, that was definitely a mini-nightmare and I hate waking up to that unsettling feeling. Hopefully today as a day makes up for it.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

I hate how I could feel this way so easily. It's a constant battle with myself.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

The Post-Grad Life

Life after college graduation is .. pretty anti-climactic for me, to say the least. I'm still in Berkeley working a job that's paying me fairly good money but for crappy crappy hours. I'm slightly jealous of my friends who got to go on the East Coast for internships and jobs, livin' big city 9-5 lives while I'm stuck in smalltown Berk (yes, DCho & KChou, I'm pretty jealous I'm not in NY right now like you!!!).

But that's beside the point. This summer is more of a transitional phase for me more than anything. Time to get my money right and do last-minute things in Berk that I didn't get to do in 4 years (haha). It also allows me to be closer to my love who's in Sac, but a 1-hour drive beats an 8-hour drive ANYDAY.

I've been actively perusing job listings to see what the market is like.. As a recent graduate I don't have much experience in the law-related workforce, so oftentimes the places I could apply to are limited. But it's all good, it's part of the experience. It's a scary thing, putting yourself out there for everyone to judge whether you're worthy enough of a job or not, but c'est la vie, n'est pas?

On the bright side, I've been having a fairly awesome summer so far. Just had an awesome weekend in San Diego with my bestfriends. Got super tan too! Now I'm just Berkeley chillin', doing the active job search thang, etc.

I ALSO BOUGHT TICKETS TO HAWAII FOR AUGUST! I'm super excited; I've never been and now I get to go with my boyfriend and 2 of my bestfriends. I'm so lucky (:

Anyway, that's all for now. My life is boring but I guess it's just a sign that I'm growing up. No new news to report, except that my work life is chill as I'm coming correct with my finances, my love life is AMAAAAZING, my friends life is also awesome. Life in general is good, BLESSED more than anything.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Ends & Beginnings

I officially walked in my graduation ceremonies 3 weeks ago. At the ceremonies the student speakers always mentioned something about how "this isn't only an end but also a beginning." Of course, we hear this at every graduation. But it didn't really hit me until yesterday that it's more of an end than I've been allowing myself to believe.

Over the past weekend I officially moved out of the apartment. With the help of my awesomely awesome boyfriend, his cousin, and some friends, I finally got ALL my stuff out over a 3-day period (I don't even have that much stuff). I also had to clean the apartment. It was a really stressful experience, and moving in general is such a pain, especially since my family moved over spring break back home as well (moving twice in a year, ugh).

After all of this, though, it finally came down to me looking at my completely empty apartment and realizing how good this home was to me for the past 2 years, the last 2 years of my college life. I learned SO MUCH about myself and life in general living in this apartment (and even before that!), I was actually really sad as I was putting my keys away. Please believe that if Amanda were there with me, we probably would've been bawling on the floor together. Instead I had to hold it together in front of my guy roommate :P

Needless to say, I'm now living in a new place.. In a sort of limbo until I get myself back out there. It's always hard to move on from a really important person/place/object in your life, but if it must be done it will be.

With all that said, I have the rest of my life to look forward to. It's time to end the college chapter of my life and open the next one.. Whatever it may be. I never thought I'd get here but it's here, and sooner than I had hoped. But with all the memories that came with that apartment and the past couple of years, I could take everything I've learned and keep growing and learning as I should be.

Of course I'll be a bit sad and sentimental about it for a little while longer... But, like Amanda said, we could always break in sometime in the future and re-live the memories! Hehe, jk. Kinda :P

Channing&Fulton, you've been so good to me. (:

Thursday, April 8, 2010

FIVE weeks!

There's about five weeks left of my senior year here at UC Berkeley, and, with senioritis hitting me quite hard, I've composed a list of things I NEED to do (some of which I've already done but want to do again) to make sure I make the most of this last month. List will be added to and updated as necessary.

[x] Go to the top of the Campanile - 4/9 with Collin (:
[x] Hike up to the Big C - 4/23 with Collin (:
[x] Strawberry Canyon swimming - 6/20 with Collin
[ ] Lawrence Hall of Science
[x] Botanical Gardens - 6/18 with Collin
[x] Lay out/picnic on Memorial Glade - 6/20 with Collin
[x] Take a class at the RSF - 5/9 Cardio Kickboxing & Abs&Back w/ Panda
[ ] Take pictures all over campus
[x] Bars/Happy Hours - DUH... Just gonna say I've done a lot of this.
[x] "Drink with AiR" .. AiR PARTY!!! (Thanks Camilo!) - 5/1 AiR show after-party
[ ] Picture per day til the end of the semester
[ ] SF clubbing!!!
[x] Golden Gate Bridge - 6/19 with Collin
[x] Go to Japantown and take Pika Pika photos - 6/19 with Collin
[x] Study/do work in the library - Ugh too much this semester
[x] Tennis date! - 5/12 Afternoon tennis @ Channing Courts w/ Collin

That's really all I could think of for nowww... So I'll add more when I remember!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Bloopers!

A bloopers video on April Fool's Day. Hahaha. Pure coincidence! If ya'll didn't know, Dyanne & I do a weekly video (or we try..) just cuz we miss singing with each other so much since she's no longer in AiR. It pretty much keeps me sane and I love our videos even though they aren't perfect.

A behind-the-scenes look at how imperfect they really could be:



Haha, enjoy!

Monday, March 29, 2010

Sometimes,

the best friends make the best lovers. And to think, he was just always there..

I've never been friends with someone before being in a relationship with them, and I can honestly say the vibe we have is soo much stronger than anything I've ever experienced.

It's been a long, long time coming..
But I know that it's been WORTH the wait.

I couldn't be more lucky BLESSED to have him.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Spring break = New niece pictures

Of course! It's been a minute since I posted something meaningful in here.. What better way to get back into it by posting pictures of this little girl who means the world to me!






I'll try to post more frequentlyyy... Til then, enjoy the pictures!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Bruno Mars - Again



"All I went through, LED ME TO YOU
So I'd do it all over again..
For you." ♥

Posted this song on my Facebook a few weeks ago.. Bruno Mars is dope!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Everything is exactly how it should be. Finally (:

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Work sucks

But this totally made my work day. I work in a dorm unit so students come to the office all the time. A girl came today and we had this conversation:

girl: Are you in AiR by any chance? You look really familiar.
me: Yeah I am!
girl: Oh coool.. You're the one that sings the Mariah Carey song, right?
me: Yeah I do (:
girl: Oh my gosh, you have the BEST voice!
me: :X Thanks!

Anyway. I don't really hear that often and sometimes I think being in AiR is a waste of time even though I do it for the love and passion of music. Hearing that today totally wiped away my qualms about having stayed in the group for my last year in college.

Thank you, random girl in the Berkeley dorms (:

Thursday, January 21, 2010

"I want you to cherish what we have and learn and grow from what we didn't."

Monday, January 11, 2010

LT Style Electric Glide


Another display of LT's awesomeness both ON and OFF the field. You canNOT tell me this is not awesome, cuz I'm about to get on this dance, & wave to my momma! Haha.

LET'S GO CHARGERS!

Together as One

Just because this past weekend in Vegas made me greatly miss New Year's and the people I was with!


My mentality for the year so far wouldn't be the same without spending a little time with everyone in this picture (+ Kristine who took it and a few others who arrived late) on New Year's. Trying to sustain the positive vibes from then throughout the rest of my year!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Equation for Bad Romance

(RAH)²(AH)³ + [ROMA (1+MA)] + (GA)² + (OOH)(LA)² = Bad Romance

Anyway, I was just amused by that. Time to pack for Vegas and have one crazy weekend!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Goals for 2010 & beyond

Not complete, just some thoughts..

1. Get back to a regular exercise regimen. I used to go to the gym 5 times a week.. Until I went to Paris. When I came back it was hard for me to get back into it. I know new year's resolutions are just an excuse for people to make change, but unfortunately I need this excuse for this particular goal. Hahaa.
2. Take more pictures! It's my last semester of undergraduate school and I need to step my picture-taking game up up up. I used to take A LOT more than I do now, so I really gotta get on it again! Trips around campus with my camera seem like a good idea..
3. Blog more (& journal more). Both are good ways for me to document important events and feelings that shouldn't be forgotten. Seriously.
4. Cook more. Two reasons for this.. Firstly, I need to get back into some healthier eating habits. It's hard that I'm a picky eater sometimes, so by cooking more I could incorporate vegetables and proteins into my meals when I need to. Secondly, by cooking more I would spend less money eating out. This (& alcohol.. haha) is where all my money goes ):
5. Make a "life" plan and stick to it. I have to make sure that I stay on schedule for getting things done that need to be done. I also have to make sure that I secure a new job or internship to help me get there.
6. Be at my best at all times. I have to say this, because sometimes I very easily let the little things affect my mood. I need to stop doing this. My life is way too amazing to be sad about ANYTHING (although sometimes it's unavoidable). I just have to keep my head up and smile through everything, remember that I have the best family, best friends, and best boyfriend who just need me to meet them halfway.
7. More human interaction. I'm the type of person who will easily hide behind a text or a comment rather than picking up the phone and calling or meeting up with someone to catch up. I don't know why I'm like this.. I've always been a pretty isolationist person so I should be trying to work to change this and myself for the better.
8. Be on time! Class, work, rehearsal.. Being late is not classy.
9. Work toward being more independent. This is more of a mental/emotional thing.. I'm pretty independent in the way I live my life but when it comes down to making sure I'm okay, I can't keep depending on other people to stabilize me (although I am extremely grateful for those who do!).
10. Less alcohol consumption. I honestly don't even drink a lot, it's just eating away at my wallet. Also, I really got caught up in the 21-year-old lifestyle, so hopefully this will be manageable now that I'm no longer 21!

Hmm. I couldn't think of anything else at the moment but will continue to add to this as necessary. I guess they're not so much goals for just this year but LIFE goals. All right, I'm tired and I'm going to try to get one more star in Super Mario for DS. Haha.

Goodnight!

Happy 22nd Bia Bia!

Happy 22nd birthday to my best friend, Siene!



Have a good first week of school and we will continue celebrations in Vegas, where twenty-two shots will be awaiting your consumption!

PS,
You are officially an old fart now! LOVE YOU!

Monday, January 4, 2010

Bangs?

I got my hair trimmed today and decided to have my bangs cut as well.



It's a little bit uneven so I may have to do a little bit more trimming but I mean it is what it is. Anyway, I'm really not used to it.. It's weird having something in front of my face all the time. But it's really only for when my hair is up (as it is in this photo) or even half-up, which is how I uuusually wear my hair anyway. When it's down I'm going to keep it side-swept, which is very convenient. (:

That is all, and sorry for being vain.. Haha.