Day 23 - Something you crave for a lot

Hmmm.. Food-wise? I'd have to say pho, and cali burritos or carne asada fries. And western bacon cheeseburgers. And rice. Mmm.

Things I Like About Working

01. Paycheck. DUH. Just got my first one! Time to book me a flight to Sac. (:
02. My funny coworkers. I feel like all we do in the office is giggle :P
03. Free food! I think we have parties like every other day.. -___- I thought I was gonna cut down on snacking, but they make it much too hard by bringing chips and brownies and cake like every day.
04. Keeps me busy. Otherwise I'd be depressed from boredom.
05. Air-conditioning.. At least for now. Cuz it's been so hot!
06. Reason to buy new clothes :P
07. All the great eateries around my office. I do mean In-n-Out, Taco Bell, Carl's Jr, and the like. But I won't be doing that everyday, of course.
& more.. But I'm too tired to keep going with my list now haha

Day 22 - What makes you different from everyone else

Ugh, I hesitate to write this post in fear that it'll be really cliche, but here goes anyway.

There are a lot of things that make me different from everyone else. Just the combination of things I've experienced over the course of my twenty-two years of life have contributed to what makes me "different." And it'll continue to be that way.

I grew up with this unwarranted insecurity that I wasn't good enough, that I always had to prove something to someone, but that in the end no one would care anyway. After so many bouts of depression, as a result of the so-called haters, the unhealthy relationships, the perceived failures, and that same old insecurity that haunted me, something finally kicked in and I started to let myself grow up, grow into what I am now.

Going into college was such a beautiful thing for me, because not only was it 500 miles away from my comfort zone, but it led me to meet people who would help me see that I'm worth something. Of course I was still plagued by the haters and the failed relationships, but my past experiences helped me through them.

I can't even go into how messed up things have been growing up, where it got to the point where I really believed that my life wasn't worth living, but without it I wouldn't be as strong and independent as I am today. I know a lot of people still doubt me, still talk their smack, but these days I just don't let it phase me.

I've accomplished a lot but I don't ever forget where I came from.

I definitely owe a lot to my amazingly supportive and loving family, the best friends that I've kept and made, and my faith for bringing me here. I still have soooo much to learn and so much to experience, but I've got enough determination and motivation to get myself where I want and need to be.

Anyway, I'm sure everyone has their own story that defines them, that sets them apart, but this is just a part of mine. I won't go into it more than I have, because it's much too personal, but that's it. Cliched or not, it is what it is.

& I wouldn't change a thing (:

Long-distance...

I've never ever ever been in so deep as I am now. I never knew what it really felt like to be loved the way I am loved, and to love the way I love him. 500 miles of distance is only a small obstacle in our relationship, but we're making it work. It's worth the plane tickets and gas money just as long as I can kiss him and hug him and fall asleep right next to him.



Every second feels like eternity when I'm not with him, but I know we can make it through anything.

LOVE IS PATIENT...

BLESSED.

Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy

Knowing me and what's making me happiest right now, I'd totally post a picture of my amazing, wonderful, best-thing-that's-happened-to-me boyfriend, but I'll spare you the gag moment and post something else that makes me happy:

My beautiful niece! She's now four years old as of Thursday, and she is growing up waaaay too fast. She really loves me though, and I love her too. (:

Day 20 - Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Haha. This one's funny.

Can't even really think about marriage or the future, cuz right now I'm handling me and I'm sure the person I'm going to marry someday is handling himself too, but all I CAN say is right now I absolutely love the one I got, my boyfriend & bestfriend, the best thing I would've never even thought to ask for.


Ain't no love like the one I got, no one could love me better.
Thanks for taking such good care of me, love (:

I'm just taking it as it comesss, yeah?

The "First Day of Work" Post

I had my first official day of training today and I must say I'm a bit overwhelmed with all the stuff I did today.

Rewind back to 2008, I worked for this company as a summer receptionist/clerk, which was easy shmeezy work. It was so easy that the agents and CSRs gave me extra work to do, which of course I didn't mind.

Fast forward to the present, and boy do I wish it were 2008 again! Okay, not really.. But my responsibilities as a Commercial CSR Assistant have greatly increased. I kind of miss the days of answering phones, directing calls, making copies, and filing (although we don't file anymore apparently; it's all paperless now!), but I guess there's always a time to move on.

Anyway, like I said, my position entails a lot of responsibilities that I can't even go on to discuss. But it's a LOT.

I like training right now because my hand is being held throughout the whole process, but I can already see things that I want to change--not only my desk, but also just the different tasks in general and just the way my mind will work in regards to the things I have to do.

But that's that. Work is good so far, and I'm going back in tomorrow to learn more tasks and more details. I'm ready to be overwhelmed again....

& I gotta learn to start waking up early again. I had to resort to coffee today >_<

All right, more updates later as my work life progresses.

PEACE!

Day 19 - Nicknames you have; why do you have them

01. Chris - For obvious reasons. Although only some high school friends and my fam calls me this.

02. Steen - Also for obvious reasons. Sometimes people call me Steeny still. My screen name used to be steeny the weeny. Haha.

03. Tarsier - But really only Panda calls me this, because she gets to be an animal so I get to too. Tarsier <3 Panda! Guess why she calls me tarsier?

Don't really have much other nicknamesss. My name's too boring :P

Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have

Just general, I guess...

01. Law school
02. Successful career life after law school
03. Travel
04. Marry my soulmate
05. Have a happy loving family

Working toward the first two as we speak, and hopefully the rest will fall into place.

Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

I can honestly say I wouldn't want to switch lives with anyone for a day. If I were to switch lives with, say, a rich person then it would suck to come back to my life the day after.. Unless I could transfer that person's money into my account without them tracking, but that's not really realistic.

So, no one. That's all!

Day 16 - Another picture of yourself

Here's me at the top of the Diamond Head Hike in Honolulu, Hawaii. Such an amaaazing view, absolutely does the beauty of the Island justice. (:

LIFE!

It's been a minute since I last wrote in here, and WOW so much has happened. From Hawaii, to a funeral, to life in SF, to relocating back down to SD... To spending soo much time with the love of my life, finally getting myself employed, and picking up an internship, it's hard to even know where to start.

Boyfriend left San Diego today after driving down from NorCal with me and spending 9 days here! He went back to Sac and the scary thing is not knowing when we're going to see each other again. But I'm employed now, so I will not even hesitate to get myself up to visit him in Sacramento.

Anyway, with his departure marked the signal of the end of my supposed indefinite post-undergrad vacation. I pretty much came home and was offered a job on the spot, for which I start training on Tuesday (I came back last Tuesday.. All this happened within two weeks!) and picked up an internship for which I start in a few hours.

I know this is all rambles and whatnot, but I just wanted to say that I am back in the blogging business. I definitely must recount my Hawaii trip, my SF vacation, and Collin's vacation here with me in SD, but I will save that for another time, or actually when I have more time.

All I know is that life is moving super fast right now and I'm not quite sure if I like it yet but I know I sure as hell have to brace myself for it cuz, well, I don't have any other choice.

Til next time, much love.

Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

01. Janet Jackson - I Get So Lonely
02. Zero 7 - Today
03. Ryan Leslie - Diamond Girl
04. Asher Roth & Ryan Leslie - Diamond Girl
05. The Dream - I Love Your Girl
06. Aaliyah - At Your Best
07. Michael Jackson - Get On the Floor
08. Kanye West - Good Life
09. Broken Dreams - Pirate Face
10. Michael Jackson - Working Day and Night