Complaints?

I have none, really. Except toward myself.

I've been trying to do me and be on that independent tip but I'm daily realizing that the me I've been living as.. The me that doesn't care about anyone or anything.. It's too selfish a lifestyle and there are soo many things I need to do to change for the better.

I can't keep doing this to myself and other people. I am slowly (but surely) realizing that I have to start being more mindful of what's around me. Have more regard for the people I care about. I mean yeah I'm up here in Berkeley staying on my griind but there are so many in-betweens in my life up here that I see now as inconsistent with what I am striving for.

There are so many things from my past that I'm not proud of.. No regrets, of course cuz I've learned from everything.. But it's time that I start putting those lessons into action. I can't justify any of my past wrongs, I can only make amends to my current self. If that means cutting people out of my life to keep the ones I love, then I just gotta do it. I can't keep living my life not being proud of myself. Cuz if I'm proud of myself in one aspect of my life but not in another, then it really does amount to nothing. I need to start being proud of my whole self and not just parts of it.

It's time to put things into perspective and start shaping up if I want to keep things right.


I really just hope that it's not too late..